LAST UPDATE:
13 Aug 2002

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Welcome to The J, my new website and sort-of internet magazine.
Before The J, there was my personal website Jeeves' Joint. That was born in August 1999 and was discontinued in 2001. This is were I hope to publish my writings, my thoughts, my ideas. Ideas I wish to share with others. So read on and enjoy, hopefully (I know you will).

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"Kill 2 birds with 1 stone" - Who comes up with these? Redneck Billy and his hunting stones?

RayJay, official mascot of The J says:
"Its moments like these, you need... your mates. Nice."

No.8 Films
2001:
- Silent Type...Still Rolling
- Outside
- InsideOutside
- Like, Totally
2002:
- One Last Time
- The First Job
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August 1^st

Why write about this day? It’s just redundant.
Any other day of the year would be better
Why not September 26^th? Is there a law somewhere?
“Runaways and injured men” is whispered in my ear
Is that what I am? I look to the bottom of the glass.

Why do I still care so much?
Often I stare at the stars, crane my neck
Do you know what she said to me?
”They never have the answers”
She’s right. It’s ‘cause they can’t speak.

So it still vexes me, even though some time has passed
I dislike this feeling as much as I like it
Nothing seems to make sense right now
I walk at half the pace I used to, with my head down
The heaviness pulling at me

I’m lucky to have these strong pillars to hold me
They should know I appreciate it
They’re the only things stopping me from falling
For a while I felt really shit and stupid
Now I feel less shit (but the same amount of stupid)

Only one person holds the answer
But his fist is wrapped so tightly, but its okay
I know who he is, he just has to talk, reach out
I only wish he knew how to
Because my neck hurts too much to coax him.

-Rajeev Mishra (12.08.02)  

 

Just Like Before

 

I think I’m going nuts
Why haven’t you told her yet?
You don’t know how much it cuts
I know you don’t,
I’ll make a bet

With the world, I’ll lay a challenge
But in the end, it won’t matter
I’ll be alone, sentinel, like Stonehenge
And he’ll hold the pearl
And I’ll feel all my bones shatter

How does their mind work?
It’s something we’ll never know
Things in darkness lurk
But is that such a bad thing?
I see the southern winds blow

As I raise my sail, I look out to her
she’s standing on a distant shore,
Suns not bright, if only it were
An arm wraps her shoulder
And my body bleeds to its very core.

And so this Friday I’ll drink a pint or two, again
Maybe three will help this time
The whole world just seems so plain
now that I missed the boat once more
At least I can still remember the line

On which I spoke that night before
Before I said all the stupid regretful things.
they don’t seem so regretful anymore
thanks to my friends, I can see
As they help me up on their white wings

And so tomorrow I’ll see that oyster,
just like before anything ever took place.
I’ll feel my throat dry without moisture
I’ll sit with them, inside it will differ
But I’ll still joke and laugh with the same face

It’s not for all of them, this façade
Just one in particular, the one with the flower
Sometimes I wander into my front yard
And star at the night sky forever
And wish the answers on me would shower
But they don’t.

 

Rajeev Mishra (13.08.02)

 

Almost forgot, feel free to e-mail me with any ideas, comments, irate complaints etc. I'll welcome them warmly. Aw, isn't that nice?

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